Auditioning seems to be a stressful time for a lot of people. I know some people who almost get physically sick. So why can it be such a hard time? I think a lot of it has to do with throwing yourself out there, putting all you have on the line for other people to judge. Few people like to be judged, so the whole process of auditioning should seem insane to a lot of people.
I, for one, actually enjoy auditioning. I get a rush from it, similar to performing, but just a little different. The idea of being evaluated comes to the forefront at an audition, you are in competition with others, as opposed to working with others in a performance. I guess one reason I like it is I’m a competitive person by nature. And I’ve been auditioning since before I can remember. The worst part of an audition for me is when it’s over, when the director says, “alright, that’s all we need from you, we’ll let you know.” Even if I felt my audition went well, I can’t help but be disappointed that it’s over, that I’m done performing for them. That attitude may stem from when I was little, when I would perform for my grandma. We have video of me standing on a little box, then jumping onto the carpet shouting, “Clap grandma!” And she would oblige every time, giving me the ovation I deserved. I blame her for any need for attention I may have.
So how can a person get better at getting through an audition without traumatizing themselves? One thing I usually think to myself is, “What’s the worst that could happen, they say no?” Putting it in perspective can help. Auditioning is rarely a ‘make it or die’ kind of venture. Another thing one can do is use that nervous energy to their advantage. Use your ‘shakiness’ to add to your character somehow. You’d be surprised how you can the emotions rushing through you to your advantage. And finally, just keep auditioning. There’s no method better than experience in this line of work.
Along the lines of auditioning, I have a final story. All four years of high school I auditioned with my trumpet for the Iowa All-State Music Festival, a huge music concert that includes an orchestra of around 200, a band of over 250, and a choir of over 600. It is broadcast by PBS, and is the highest honor a Iowa high school music student can have. I was always the only one from my school to audition. My junior year my dad took me to the audition site nearest our home, which was still a couple of hours away. The home room/warm up area for the instruments was the gym of a large school. There were hundreds of other kids there. Around 45 minutes before my audition, I leaned up against the wall of the gym and slid down to sit. As I sat, I suddenly felt something in my pants give way. After examining them I had the horrible realization that I had ripped my pants! I had a huge tear across the seat of my pants from end to end, and if I stood up, it created a huge flap covering my rear. I couldn’t believe it, this was truly the worst thing that could happen. I asked my dad to determine the severity of the tear. He lied, and said it wasn’t that bad. I tied my coat around my waist to hide the atrocity, then began warming up for the audition. There was nothing else I could do! My dad and I planned it out so as I walked into the audition, I casually handed him my coat, and made sure to face the judges the entire time. Honestly, I was physically the most comfortable I’ve ever been at an audition, it’s not like my pants were confining! As I walked in, there were two people sitting across the hall from my audition room. One said to the other, “Do you think he knows his pants are ripped?” My dad assured him that I was indeed aware. This is the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to me in an audition. It was also the only year that I made it into All-State.
I think one reason I did so well in the audition is that I was too busy worrying about my pants that I couldn’t worry about my playing, I just did what I had practiced for so long. My audition took care of itself, without my nerves getting in the way.
So don’t let your nerves control you too much. Show whoever you’re auditioning for what you can do, and if they don’t want to use you, move on. Such is the life of an entertainer. Thanks for reading, if you have your own audition story leave a comment! I’ll update again soon!